Unfill 08/10/2009

Well I saw Dr Fill yesterday and he was very happy for me re: the pregnancy considering that the fact that I wasn’t even ovulating before my lapband surgery helped me decide to get it in the first place.

He took 1ml out of my band to be on the safe side but if I start vomiting a lot I have to go straight back and get it all out.

Otherwise I see him in two months. 

Yesterday there was not much sickness, so we will see today.

Oh and in regards to the dress I mentioned in earlier posts I went and bought another one so that I could stop stressing – same size but different style so at least I don’t have to worry about the other one fitting on the day now.  I might try and sell it on ebay.

I’ll post a photo of me in the new dress when I can  you can all tell me what you think

Dr Fill 23/09/2009

Well I saw Dr Fill today.  I think he may have put a big fill in but time will tell.  He definately thinks my band has loosened due to the amount of weight I have lost.

He reminded me of how well I am doing and he definately did not want me to go on optifast.

I feel better about a lot of things but again it has been reinforced to me what damage I am doing to myself by weighing frequently so I am definately going to try and weigh only monthly from now on.  That way I won’t have the highs and lows as every time I have seen the surgeon I have lost (as he doesn’t take into account the weekly fluctations of my weight).

Anyway I am starving as I have to do liquids for 12 hours and then mushies for the 12 after that so I will go and make my one optifast shake.  Hopefully this is me getting out of my rut. 

Busy busy 01/08/2009

Well since I have been back from band camp I have been so busy.

On Tuesday I went to see my surgeon – I don’t know why I was worried.  He was great.  I told him I was struggling and the reasons I think I needed more fill, he was in agreement with me and he put in way more than I was expecting LOL.

But it really seems to have done the trick, I can still eat normally but less and I feel full for much longer.  This time he took the time and talked to me so I am thinking that last appointment because I didn’t open up and say I was beginning to struggle he assumed I was doing fine (as the weight was coming off the scales).  This time he was still happy with the weight that was coming off but because I opened up more he was obviously able to help me more.  I have learnt my lesson and from what everyone was saying at band camp I am so happy I went with the surgeons that I did because their after care is amazing.

On Thursday my daughter had to go to hospital to have a little operation, nothing serious thankfully but watching her get put under was really hard.  To see the panic in her face and not do anything to console her was horrible.  I really feel for the parents of sick kids – it is really heartbraking – even seeing the empty cots at the childrens hospital was hard.

Now her wound is infected so we had to go back to the docs today and she is on antibiotics.  Poor little girl, I wish I could take her pain and deal with it instead.  But she is in good spirits.

Back to weight, I am liking the way the scales are heading this week but I have to get through a BBQ tomorrow.  I had pizza tonight but am stuffed after two slices.  That pleases me a lot.

Oh and it only just dawned on me today that my hair loss seems to be back to normal – yay!!!

What band? 06/05/2009

Well I just sneakily moved my next band fill appointment to next Tuesday rather than the week after that as it does not even feel like I have a band.

I can eat whatever and I don’t like the direction the scales seem to be going this week so bring on Tuesday, I hope I can feel a difference this time.

I guess the other main thing I need to remember is that chocolate is not my friend – it only wants to cling to my belly, butt and thighs and make me look like a michelin man.  If only it didn’t taste so good!!!

Also I seem to have a new obsession with constantly craving Pad Thai – I am going to attempt to make it at home one of these days as it seems to be my favourite thing at the moment. Yummy yummy!