Busy busy 01/08/2009

Well since I have been back from band camp I have been so busy.

On Tuesday I went to see my surgeon – I don’t know why I was worried.  He was great.  I told him I was struggling and the reasons I think I needed more fill, he was in agreement with me and he put in way more than I was expecting LOL.

But it really seems to have done the trick, I can still eat normally but less and I feel full for much longer.  This time he took the time and talked to me so I am thinking that last appointment because I didn’t open up and say I was beginning to struggle he assumed I was doing fine (as the weight was coming off the scales).  This time he was still happy with the weight that was coming off but because I opened up more he was obviously able to help me more.  I have learnt my lesson and from what everyone was saying at band camp I am so happy I went with the surgeons that I did because their after care is amazing.

On Thursday my daughter had to go to hospital to have a little operation, nothing serious thankfully but watching her get put under was really hard.  To see the panic in her face and not do anything to console her was horrible.  I really feel for the parents of sick kids – it is really heartbraking – even seeing the empty cots at the childrens hospital was hard.

Now her wound is infected so we had to go back to the docs today and she is on antibiotics.  Poor little girl, I wish I could take her pain and deal with it instead.  But she is in good spirits.

Back to weight, I am liking the way the scales are heading this week but I have to get through a BBQ tomorrow.  I had pizza tonight but am stuffed after two slices.  That pleases me a lot.

Oh and it only just dawned on me today that my hair loss seems to be back to normal – yay!!!

Weigh In 06/07/2009

Weigh in:

Current Weight: 101.5kg
Loss: 0.5kg
Total lost (since first appointment): 26kg

Well a tiny step towards the double figures – I am a little surprised that I lost this week.  I seem to eat better the first half the week straight after weigh in and then as the next weigh in gets closer I progressively eat more and worse (or maybe that just coincides with the weekend??)

It is my wedding anniversary today – my bets are on my hubby forgetting LOL.

It is less than three weeks until band camp – I am so excited – I really hope this is going to get my butt into gear in terms of exercising.

In regards to hair loss I have noticed that a lot more of my scalp is showing now, I won’t let it get me down.  It is only temporary and in the scheme of things is not such a big deal.

Progress Report 25/06/2009

Well according to my healthy weight chart I am no longer severly obese – I am now just very obese.  But in about 5kgs I will just be plain old obese.

Could there be a worse word than obese – it is horrible isn’t it!!!

I am going to update my weight goal and change the goal to 71kg (which is the high end of my healthy weight range) and then when I get there if I want to get lower I will reevaluate.

As for my hair loss it hasn’t slowed after all – I am still shedding clumps everywhere I go.

Can’t wait for my Monday weigh in although I still have to get through a weekend bbq but that is fine (although we won’t talk about the choc chip cookies I had yesterday LOL).  But I am really happy with my head space at the moment.

I am still not great with my exercise but I notice that I do way more incidental exercise during the day which is great ie not being afraid to take the stairs, running around and being silly with my daughter etc

Opti?? 19/06/2009

Well I think after the weekend I might do another week of optifast to reset myself – I feel a bit out of control at the moment.

I’m sure things will settle down but I just feel myself slipping into old habits.

After reading a fellow bandits blog I realise that I may not have mentioned the amount of hair I am losing at the moment.  It is really gross – I thought it was because I haven’t been taking my vitamins but L (fellow bandit) has been and she is also losing her hair so it might just be to do with the actual weight loss.  Anyhow I started taking my tablet again today but just swallowed it whole – and it went down fine so until I have more fill I think it will be ok for now.

I have a family do tomorrow night and I am a little nervous that people I haven’t seen for a while are going to notice the weight loss and comment.  I’m sure it will be fine, they might not even say anything but TTOTM. arghh 

Also I emailed fernwoods and the lady wants me to go in a check it out in person (when the creche is running so I can see how my daughter copes) – I don’t know why but I am a little terrified.  I know I need to do something though as I have been really slack in the exercise department.

Oh well that’s all from me tonight (dreading this weeks weigh in)