Dr Fill 23/09/2009

Well I saw Dr Fill today.  I think he may have put a big fill in but time will tell.  He definately thinks my band has loosened due to the amount of weight I have lost.

He reminded me of how well I am doing and he definately did not want me to go on optifast.

I feel better about a lot of things but again it has been reinforced to me what damage I am doing to myself by weighing frequently so I am definately going to try and weigh only monthly from now on.  That way I won’t have the highs and lows as every time I have seen the surgeon I have lost (as he doesn’t take into account the weekly fluctations of my weight).

Anyway I am starving as I have to do liquids for 12 hours and then mushies for the 12 after that so I will go and make my one optifast shake.  Hopefully this is me getting out of my rut. 

Monday’s weigh in 23/09/2009

Weigh in:

Current Weight: 100.3kg
Gain: 0.4kg
Total lost (since first appointment): 27.2kg

Ho hum – you can see why it has taken me two days to post this.

On a better note I see my surgeon today.  I will be asking him whether it is a good idea for me to go on ’strict’ optifast.  If he says yes I will definately listen as I feel a little out of control and that I am failing although I have tried to minimise these feelings as the weight that I have lost has changed so many things.

On a non band note isn’t this dust storm weird – I haven’t even gone outside yet and all I can smell is dust (or maybe I just need to get to my housework) LOL.  My daughter was for the first time last night scared of the thunder so I told her it is just the clouds tripping over and bumping into eachother.  Whoops. She found that amusing hehe.

I hope everyone is doing well in bandit land.  Congrats to Tracy who gave birth to her baby!!!!

Plodding along 08/09/2009

I just read Em’s super challenge and I need to do something like that!!!  I need these next 10 kilos to be gone already.

I know I have done great things but I am going to be at my six month bandiversary in a couple of weeks.

Anyway I had optifast today and some food as well.  Going alright but I know that the whole point of the band is to change my relationship with food so the things I need to focus on is:

1. Drink more water
2. Have one cup meals and one snack per day
3. Start exercising again and try to build up a routine

I find with me it is always all or nothing so I am going to try and build up to it slowly. 

I did ring and make an appointment with Dr Fill – it is not for another two weeks so I am hoping to have rebalanced myself until then.  I can do this, I can do this, I can do this, I can do this………..well you get the point.

Weigh In 07/09/2009

Weigh in:

Current Weight: 99.6kg
Loss: 0.3kg
Total lost (since first appointment): 27.9kg

Well thank goodness, my body has been kind to me on the scales.  Opti here I come!